Tender Mercies
There have been so many thoughts running through my mind lately. And yes, many of them have been positive and beautiful, BUT even then I feel an unexplainable weight of confusion and sadness. Yesterday after work, I got in my car and just let out a good cry. Sometimes I feel as we get older we try to hide our emotions, especially if they are not as peppy or wonderful. Every time I get this feeling of "failure" I am reminded who I am, a daughter of the good Almighty. And as I cried I felt this spiritually devine comfort whispering to me "You. Are. Enough." I thought of my life and where I am headed. Will I become this? Will I achieve that? Am I pushing myself a bit more each day to learn new things? For anyone that truly knows me, I really do overthink things. That's part of my character. Over thinking and eventually digging myself into this tunnel of endless worries that simply aren't necessary. So, as I sat on my couch yesterday after school I remembered beautiful moments of when I was a child. I remembered when I was about 6 years old I started praying for my future husband and every year after that praying that he was okay, to let him know I love him and hope he knows I'll find him one day. I prayed that God would bless him in whatever activity he was engaging in and that if he was having a bad day to bless him and let him know he was not alone, that he had God, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Ghost to comfort him. After reliving those moments in my mind I felt a calm, sweet spirit fill my soul. The knowledge of knowing the power of the gospel and FEELING it work to make me, a simple woman with a simple life, feel so worthy and priceless just testifies of the love Jesus Christ has for me, and each and every one of us. Although trials are never fun during the storm, the blessings that come from having faith, and staying obedient are far sweeter than anything you can imagine. ''For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord." (Romans 8:38-39)
Cordially yours,
Madi xo